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Bittersweet September

Well, what can I say about my month of September? The title of the post itself has a special meaning through the days of the month of September.

First of all, I’d like to congratulate my best friend Ally and her dearest hubby Jeff (who are living in the Philippines right now) on their newborn baby boy, Kynan Riley Daddow!! I’m not sure if you’re reading this Ally but I have to say I’m thrilled with your newest addition to your family! I truly wish I could be with you right now and I can’t wait to see your little pumpkin soon! Take care my dearest friend and I love you! 😀

Well, here’s a peek of what’s going on in my days for the rest of September.

Week 37

Week 38

Week 39 

Looking back at what happened the past weeks, my days were filled with bittersweet emotion.

Just about 3 weeks ago, my husband and I were deliriously thrilled when we got to know I was pregnant. Yes, I was tested positive! This was totally unplanned but it was a blessing and a gift from God. We weren’t really planning of having another child after 8 years since I had my boy. We were happy with our lives, just the 3 of us.

Of course we were thrilled and more than happy to have another addition to our family. But imagine at my age of coming to 40 next March, I was also afraid and unsure if I could still manage a young baby. But my hubby assured me that we will manage nicely and now that Ethan is a big boy, he will definitely help out around a bit. Ethan was also very happy when he knew he was going to be a big brother next year!

Our joy was short-lived when I had my check up on Saturday with my gynae, no heart beat was detected at all and the embryo has stopped growing 1 week since I had a scan. All was good during the first 2 weeks after I got to know I was pregnant, and then, the heart stopped beating suddenly. I was devastated. I was so looking forward to having this baby but it’s God’s will. The embryo was weak and my doctor said it’s best that it was detected early so there will be no complication in the coming months. And so the decision was made to have the embryo removed. I had the procedure yesterday and will be home for the rest of the week to rest and recuperate.

It was not meant to be this time and I believe this happened for a reason. Yes, I was truly sad and so was my dearest hub but life moves on. I’m definitely thankful for the support of my hub, who has been with me since we had the bad news on Saturday, he took time off to stay by my side, giving me emotional support and care for me after I had the procedure. And I’m also thankful to my family, my best friends and team mates, who constantly called and sent me messages all day long to show me support. I truly love and appreciate their warm thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. And I hope in time to come and with God’s will, we’ll have another chance at having another child.

Thank you my dear friends, you know who you are, for your continuous prayers and emotional support.

Have a great October everyone and thank you once again for popping by my blog! 🙂

  • libbywilkoOctober 2, 2012 - 1:02 pm

    So sorry Leena, sending you lots and lots of hugs.

  • VeraOctober 2, 2012 - 1:57 pm

    Bittersweet indeed, very sorry to hear what happened. Praying for you and your family.

  • Madey LimOctober 2, 2012 - 2:57 pm

    Sending you lots of hugs.. i know you’ll be strong.

  • LauraOctober 2, 2012 - 6:32 pm

    so sorry to hear this, Leena

  • Heather T.October 2, 2012 - 7:18 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you find healing in your family!

  • Linda in AusOctober 2, 2012 - 8:19 pm

    Leena I’m so very sorry, sending all of you big hugs.. You’re in my thoughts.

  • me:annieOctober 3, 2012 - 11:55 am

    Sorry for your loss, Leena. Recover soon….

  • SueOctober 4, 2012 - 6:46 pm

    I’m so, so sorry for your loss. Take care. xx

  • Karen JOctober 5, 2012 - 2:42 am

    Oh, Leena, so sorry to hear your loss. I am so glad you have support to help you through this. I’ve been in your shoes and family support is everything. Take care of yourself and recover soon.

  • Priya VenkatOctober 5, 2012 - 12:38 pm

    I am so sorry Leena. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself.

  • Jenn SerranoOctober 7, 2012 - 5:43 am

    So sorry to hear about your loss, you are in my thoughts.

  • TamaraOctober 12, 2012 - 11:15 pm

    oooh sad to hear you was pregnant and the embreyo was stopped growing 🙁 I hope you are feel better soon.. Thinking of you and your family xx Tamara

  • GraceMOctober 22, 2012 - 11:51 pm

    So sorry to hear of your loss Leena, may the Lord give you and your family peace and strength during this time.

  • NancyOctober 26, 2012 - 12:47 pm

    So sorry for your loss. Hugs!

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